Well here's something i havent done in a while... it could be because really my life is not really as entertaining as it once was!!! Geez the words arent flowing as well at this hour of the morning but here goes the last three months of my life. Now where to begin???

Lets start from today and work back to see how it is i got myself in this predicament. i am now back where i was when i first moved up here and that seems to be back with rellies...

now wat would i do without family?

This all came about when i first visited my aunty that just moved up here... she had a room spare and to help me save money offered it to me out of the kindness of her heart.....

i loved where i lived in the first place.. i loved livin with my bestie tash and fun easy going James.... i loved partying every night like there was no tomorow... i loved those mornings where i would be woken at 4 in the morning by our party goers ringing the door bell... i just loved everything i had so why did i give it up???

Well really i had no other choice you can say... im in debt!!!! nothing reallly that serious but with how much it was costing me to live i just really couldnt afford anything or save so instead of continuing down the spiral i made a choice that would help me lift up.....

Of course i moved and now it has been a month... and you know what im still struggling and worse than ever... the continuing bills just keep pilling up

Men!!!!

Men.....!!!!! Gees...... when you think you have figured them out then the best thing to do is to think again cause although we as women hate to admit it... we are never right!!!! and when it comes to men we will never be able to figure them out!!!!
The day i gave up on trying to figure out men was the day i ended my 6 month relationship with the guy i loved and lived with! it didnt come easy and really i didnt want to do it.. but it just had to be done... nothing was working and cause of that i was unhappy...
Anyways what has pissed me off enough to write about this is the fact that i have just realised that with me taking that step and end a relationship i found that a guy can say he loves you but really not mean it!!! throughout our relationship my guy use to say he loved me and that he couldnt see himself with anyone else.. well.. however when our relationship ended although how much i said i still loved him still ,but it just wasnt working, he didnt want to even try and work things out and now just less than a month after our break up he is with another girl!!!
Yeh ok thats normal for a guy or girl to have a rebound.... but this however is normally with a girl you hardly knew or just met... this however for him was different...
Throughout our relationship there was this girl he met through one of his mates which i found abit suss!!! anyays this girl that he was chatting to throughout our relationship... is the girl he is dating now....
Dam i hate this... it shows that really a guy will say he loves you if he is comfortable with what he has.... It shows that my guy only loved me cause he had everything and really couldnt be bothered packing up his shit and move place... so thats why he stayed.....

hOhO!

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Christmas Plans.. Geez its come so quick

Yay! christmas is just around the corner now.. i think it about 11 weeks to go.. but still not sure what to decide to do ver the christmas hols... my buy ben is going to see his parents which will most likely leave me home by myself if i decide not to go... its hard ay meeting the parentals for the first time but it has to be done sooner or later.. Geez just talking about meeting the parentals makes me think of the movie meet the fokers dam that is funny... I forgot we also brought a new couch last week.. might i say it looks fab.. and yes i chose it.. lol wat else seems to be news with me?? Geez i dont know wait wait... do have some goss.. A girl that i work with whos just been the biggest selfish bitch for the last week at work has been saying she was going to quit for the last 2 weeks and well yesterday she tried to leave without telling my boss she was quitting once again (chicken sh**) when carmen asked her to wait a minute... the reason was so cause the day before when she left early i told my boss that she was going to quit... i know i know dibba dobbas where nappies.. but who cares she was just getting more annoying and everyone was sick of her.. anyways when confront with the situation it all came up and my boss just let her go so no more her.. lol... she was such a selfish bitch though.. when i asked her that day whether she was quitting she said she didnt want to quit until she was sure that there was another job lined up.. now who does that... if you dont want to be in a job you dont be there who cares if you dont have another job... oh well shes gone now and she digged her own hole so pretty much its her own fault... haha dam im a bitch.. lol... dam hairdressing is bringing out my bitchy side.. anyways i have had enough bitchin for today...

Yay!!!

Yo Ho Ho....... Im so happy guys.... Finally got an appartment after so long... can't wait to move in the only thing is i have to tell my house mate im leaving... how do you say that to someone? Anyways hope it all goes well just gotta get ova this first hurdle and once i have jumped over that one i will then have to face the furniture hurdle... with moving out i will now have to buy all new furniture with money i dont have... also at the same time pay back a credit card with more money i dont... this is just driving me crazy... that crazy that i think i might have to ring my dad for some money until i can afford anything... anyways gona head got enough off my chest for tonight.lub lub

A long time coming!!!!

Hey yall hows it going's sorry i havent written in a while... anyways... well appart from working hard as always.. lol.. i have not been up to too much just relaxing preparing for when i go back to uni and waiting for my boy to come home... yes i now have a boy.. and would u believe it he is in the army. He's away for 4 weeks at the moment and i hate it.... i think thats the worse thing about dating army is that you never get to see them... you could have been dating for 2 years and yet only have spent a total of 6 months with them... but its all good.. as they say the heart grows fonder while their away.. or something like that.
Uni's out for 4 weeks and yet im missing it sooo much... its the place i would get to relax and hang wit friends while learning something.... oh well... hopefully the 4 weeks go quick and i will be back studying hard at uni again... it's also good at work at the moment cause the boss is a way which means the pressure isnt on as much... i work so well when people are down my neck rushing me... don't know why guess that just me.. guess i wouldnt suit a lawyers job after all...
Anyways moving off that topic but still on to more winging... this time its winging about my home life... As most of you all know i moved up to Darwin on my own with no family so that was a big step and in a way i was happy to have finally moved out of home... having a mother down your neck for 19 years just drives you crazy... well i had thought that when i moved up here i would be as far away from my mum as posssible and living with an older lady i would have had my own freedom but i was wrong.... the lady im living with is worse than my mum.. she is so anal... make sure the bin is emptied daily, your room is tidied, your washing is not left on the line.. and worse she checks if im home and checks when im sleeping.... i guess as she puts it as a 'shared house' i believe that we are not 'sharing' my room and that she should keep out... it's driving me barmy and when im cooking tea in the kitchen she tells me im cooking wrong and that her way is better and takes over... dam it gives me the sh**s... oh well i wont have to put up with it any longer as soon as Ben gets back him, heidi, tash and i are moving out.. we are looking for a house at the moment... hopes all goes well... keep u guys in formed anyways catchya have fun as i say mwah

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