Well here's something i havent done in a while... it could be because really my life is not really as entertaining as it once was!!! Geez the words arent flowing as well at this hour of the morning but here goes the last three months of my life. Now where to begin???

Lets start from today and work back to see how it is i got myself in this predicament. i am now back where i was when i first moved up here and that seems to be back with rellies...

now wat would i do without family?

This all came about when i first visited my aunty that just moved up here... she had a room spare and to help me save money offered it to me out of the kindness of her heart.....

i loved where i lived in the first place.. i loved livin with my bestie tash and fun easy going James.... i loved partying every night like there was no tomorow... i loved those mornings where i would be woken at 4 in the morning by our party goers ringing the door bell... i just loved everything i had so why did i give it up???

Well really i had no other choice you can say... im in debt!!!! nothing reallly that serious but with how much it was costing me to live i just really couldnt afford anything or save so instead of continuing down the spiral i made a choice that would help me lift up.....

Of course i moved and now it has been a month... and you know what im still struggling and worse than ever... the continuing bills just keep pilling up

Men!!!!

Men.....!!!!! Gees...... when you think you have figured them out then the best thing to do is to think again cause although we as women hate to admit it... we are never right!!!! and when it comes to men we will never be able to figure them out!!!!
The day i gave up on trying to figure out men was the day i ended my 6 month relationship with the guy i loved and lived with! it didnt come easy and really i didnt want to do it.. but it just had to be done... nothing was working and cause of that i was unhappy...
Anyways what has pissed me off enough to write about this is the fact that i have just realised that with me taking that step and end a relationship i found that a guy can say he loves you but really not mean it!!! throughout our relationship my guy use to say he loved me and that he couldnt see himself with anyone else.. well.. however when our relationship ended although how much i said i still loved him still ,but it just wasnt working, he didnt want to even try and work things out and now just less than a month after our break up he is with another girl!!!
Yeh ok thats normal for a guy or girl to have a rebound.... but this however is normally with a girl you hardly knew or just met... this however for him was different...
Throughout our relationship there was this girl he met through one of his mates which i found abit suss!!! anyays this girl that he was chatting to throughout our relationship... is the girl he is dating now....
Dam i hate this... it shows that really a guy will say he loves you if he is comfortable with what he has.... It shows that my guy only loved me cause he had everything and really couldnt be bothered packing up his shit and move place... so thats why he stayed.....